There are a few things I have learned in the past few months here in Beaufort.I have learned is that I cannot control being hurt, I must love me the good and bad, I made God small when he is bigger than I can imagine, and I can do better to be better everyday of my life.
One thing that was keeping me from living my life to the fullest was worry. I sat and I thought about why I was worrying so much and it came down to the fact that I was afraid of being hurt. Both physically and emotionally. It seamed to be unbearable and I would avoid it at all costs. Then I came to the realization that ultimately God is in control of my life. Every situation and person I encounter is to mold me and use me in some way. I am now ok with that.
The biggest thing that was keeping me from succeeding in anything and being happy was accepting me for me. I am not perfect nor will I ever be. I had to be kind to myself and take care of me like I would want to take care of someone I love. I want to be healthy and happy because that is what I want for others. I can love my friends when they make mistakes, so I can do the same for me. They are not perfect and I can love them, so I should love me too.
A few Sunday's ago I went to a community church here in Beaufort and my heart was changed. The speaker said " What you pray for reflects what you believe about God." as soon as I heard that I realized my problem. I didn't think God could do the things I wanted for me. Then he continued to say "Ask, seek, knock" he talked about being bold and asking God for what I want. If you don't ask you won't receive. I believe with all my heart that God can do all things now.
Lastly, I think that I can do better everyday of my life. I want to be the best I can be and the only one keeping me from doing so is me. I'm not going to stand in my way.
No comments:
Post a Comment